What If?
edition | illustration
A book about memories and possibilities of all the lives I could have lived.
What if? is an accumulation of memories, assembled as a parcel addressed to a Rosalie in another universe — a version of myself who never lived these moments. It is conceived as a gesture of transmission: an attempt to send fragments of childhood across distance, across possibility.
Client
Brief
Context
This project involved creating a poetic book as a tribute to my adoption. The concept explores how childhood memories gradually become vaporous and intangible over time, while we desperately attempt to preserve them despite the natural fading of memory.
The book is rooted in the idea that we all live in parallel worlds, where every decision opens the way to an infinite number of possibilities. The work was therefore created for the child from another world who would have lived my life had I not been adopted. It recounts my memories through illustrations engraved onto Japanese paper. In each illustration, my silhouette has been laser-cut out, reinforcing the idea that any child could have taken my place and lived these same memories.
At the centre of the book, a letter is addressed to this child, putting the illustrations into words. The text is structured in the same way memories accumulate in our minds: sometimes chronologically, sometimes in fragments, and occasionally without any apparent connection. As the pages progress, the lower portions of the characters gradually disappear. The letters therefore become increasingly incomplete and difficult to read, evoking the way memories fade and become harder to retrieve over time.
A long sentence also runs continuously from the beginning to the end of the book, creating a thread that connects the pages together.
The materials were chosen with the same intention of honouring my Asian roots while evoking the vaporous and fragile nature of memory. The selected paper is thin and delicate; the illustrations and text are engraved into its surface, reinforcing the fragility of the object. A Japanese binding was chosen for the same reasons. Finally, the book’s packaging recalls that of a shipped parcel, as if the book were being sent to another universe.
Paper Exploration

Engraving and cutting tests on 3 types of paper: homemade, mountain paper 30mgs and Himalayan washi paper 60mgs.
I chose to engrave the illustrations on the mountain paper 30mgs for its fragility and its delicate texture. The smaller text in the book is engraved on the Himalayan washi paper 60mgs for its better colour contrast.
Illustration Tests




Illustrations drawn from photos of my childhood in Procreate, then engraved. They seem too small; we lose the details.
Photo format 4 × 6 in.
Correction in outcome: format 1.5 times bigger, completely remove me from the photo to create a hole.
Final Illustration Process




Original photo
Drawing in Procreate using a tool that recalls Chinese ink
Separate what will be engraved and what will be cut, then adding the text
Final page
Rosalie Palin 2026











